Euro Trip 2013

       So i'm finally back from Europe, been a day already and trying to get used to the heat here in Singapore. Work in progress ;)

       Things are okay here for me, hard to get back to the old routine but will be back to normal soon. Last night went out with friends for dinner which was really great I gotta admit...and I got to see my Kiddo finally after 2 long weeks away. Stopped by Kiddos place earlier before dinner to give my presents I got from Spain and felt good to see that smile on his face and his moms. 

       Well...Europe was better this time than all the other times because my spanish was well, excellent! I was quite surprised as well since I haven't used it in years technically. First stop was Lisbon and it was freezing there but was the best time with my family. And got to roam around downtown and see all the sites I haven't seen yet like the Cristo Rei and the Santa Justa Elevator which actually was pretty scary since I don't do well with high open places :) 

       When it was time to go to Spain we ended up going by bus...a very long 12 hour bus ride. It was hell. There was this middle aged lady from Portugal up front who would not shut up at all! Even the Spanish girls in the bus kept yelling at her to be quiet...but finally reached La Coruna with my uncle and cousin Lore waiting for me and Spain was amazing. It wasn't that cold so was easy to go out each day no problem.

       The first Friday night in Spain was quite wild. I have 3 cousins there all siblings, Janis, Lorena and Jairo, so that night we went out clubbing just me, my sister, Janis and her husband, and Lore and her boyfriend Marcos. Omg it was intense. First thing about Spaniards is that our alcohol is stronger than other countries and second is that they can really hold it in for a while. In Singapore it's not as strong so I can drink quite a bit and still be alright. There it's a totally different story. So we ended up going to this one bar and had tons of shots or as they say Chupitos. 

       So how you do is you pour in the drink the bartender gives up and then a bit of 7Up and with a tiny piece of tin foil they give you, you place on top and hold it down and knock it up and down against the table to mix it. Then you drink! And we drank a lot but ended up fine. Later we went to Club Moom which is quite the famous spot in Summer for all the Spanish celebs, and we danced and drank also. I had 2 vodka lime which is like 10x the size of one in singapore...Turns out was too much for me and 3am I was passed out in my cousins car till I reached home at 6:30 haha. Thank God for Lore and Marcos who looked after me.

       Also got to hang out with my second cousin Maria and shes so much fun to be with and we went all over the city to the best places to chill and drink. Surprisingly I found out her ex used to be the Portuguese soccer player Nelson Oliveira and now her boyfriend is Diogo Salomao of Deportivo La Coruna...also got to meet Pizzi's dad!! Who was super super nice to us.

       Overall was a great time and can't wait to go back. And now some pics from the trip ;) 

My aunt and I at Cristo Rei

                                      

Lisbon

Lisbon

Santa Justa Elevator

In the caves

During Chinese New Year

La Coruna, Galicia

Club Moom with Lorena

Chupitos

Vodka Lime at Club Moom and Club Soho Bar

Me and Maria at Bitacora

Finally back to you...missed you

Oh yea forgot to mention I got inked on my hip...no real pain at all, just a prick actually but 10 great minutes ^^

Lisbon 2013

        Finally got time to write a bit while I'm here. 

       So I'm at my aunt's house here in Lisbon. I arrived Thursday afternoon after a super long flight. Arrive in Doha, Qatar and while we were on the plane there was a technical problem so after an hr sitting down we all had to go back to the terminal and wait 6 hours before we could fly. It was the longest wait ever. Finally arrived in London and I swear we ran so fast to catch our flight. Super lucky ^^

       Here it is super cold, there are no words to describe it. During the day it's ok all you need really is a jacket and a sweater cause the sun gets quite hot but still there is wind. Yesterday we got to go walk around a bit and see one part of the city and had to buy my bus ticket to Spain, so next Wednesday gonna take a 12 hour bus ride to see my grandma in Spain. What fun... -_-

       Later today going to this street market close to my aunts house that sells all sorts of stuff such as clothes, bags, shoes, food...so I get to buy all the snacks I used to love when I was little :) So right now I'm a happy boy. Missing home so much and of course my Kiddo, but I know I'll be home soon. 

       Well I'll keep you all updated with my instagram pics and on facebook! 

Have a Happy Chinese New Year!

恭喜发财!

Some pics of the trip so far:

 Qatar Airlines in Doha

 Waiting for my delayed flight in Doha...

 Dinner at home at last ^^

 Day 1 in Lisbon

 Me and my grandma <3

 Food from Portugal: Fish, Bacalhau, Pastel de Nata

 Driving around town :P

Hola Europa ;)

       Well i'm all packed and ready to go to Europe!

       Usually my family sends me there for a month each year to visit my relatives since it's hard to see them due to the fact that I move a lot thanks to my parents job. Sometimes they get to visit me wherever we are but it's not the same. I like to go to there cause I can see my grandparents and my cousins, aunt, and uncle. Also my extended family which amazingly i'm also quite close to.

       This time I'm going sorta to say bye I guess. My grandma on my dads side is old and we are not sure when we will see her again so this will be a good time to spend with her. And gonna be fun cause might get a little permanent present on myself there with my cousin Lorena ;)

       Anywho...I'm leaving tomorrow for my 2 weeks there. Stopping by in Doha, Qatar, then London for transit. Stay in Lisbon, Portugal for a week with my family there and then a 12hr bus ride to La Coruna, Spain for another week. Later taking a 3hr train ride to Vigo with my sister and meeting my mom for a night there since she is going for work so i'm only seeing her on the flight there and the flight back. Then we stop in Madrid for transit and make our way back home to Singapore.

       I really didn't want to go cause it was a surprise trip and I hate not knowing these things. It's gonna be fun but I really just want to be here this month with my Kiddo. 

       Gonna miss you okay, no matter where you are I'll miss you and love you. 

       And i'll be back soon I promise.

See you all when I return ;) Happy Holidays and Happy Valentines Day <3

Are You Really on the Inside? Or Just Playing it From the Outside?

     

       Welcome to the New Year everyone, where Singaporeans who flew north for the cold and south for the sun now return to the famous city of the good and high life. Many returning to school; and many enjoying the sun a little longer than they should. Parties have started and may I say so has the drama which isn't such a secret as most think since it’s made public every single weekend and day. The year's scarcely turned and already the secrets have begun. Where will it end this time? The new year isn't about what happened, it's about what's to come. But less on that… Movies always portray the glamorous life and goods we can only dream of. For some people it is reality to be born with a silver spoon while for others it is simply just a fairy tale. But spoiled brats don’t just happen, sometimes there made.

       Everyone dreams of being successful or well known in life, but most of all above everything else happy. Well you would think they would want to be happy. Nowadays it puzzles me. Nobody is happy; they just want that amazing life where they get what they want; where just a flash of their credit card or saying someone’s name will open any door in your life. Admit it. All people want now is to be on the inside. I used to want that yeah, who doesn't  I enjoyed the good life for as long as I could but realized I could find my own happiness without having to force it to happen in my life.

       Having people know my name and get things for free felt like everything, but it only made me realize that I was some narcissistic materialistic and shallow person. I’m me. I’m not changing who I am for anything. And if I do it’s for the best not the fake and the worst. I left that lifestyle and found my happiness and I couldn't be happier. Social media seems to be everything now and people use it to confess to their loves or crushes, or spill their ‘friends’ secrets, or get revenge.  And these days there is a lot of this revenge and drama stirring around. 

       Seriously? This is the 21st century people, it’s 2013. You are no longer little kids who are going around trying to get back at crushes who forget you or friends who leave you or trick you. Act like an adult because when you grow up and are working and trying to support yourself in life all these games and drama will not get you anywhere. Only bring you down and leave you in an alley all alone with no friends.  Clubbing is fun yes I can totally admit to that but if you say to everyone that it’s something you don’t want to do anymore and you want to focus on your studies then do it! Live your life to the fullest; go out with friends; be honest. Don’t just be all talk and no action and say you want to change when actually you are just going to run back to your old life of play pretend. Everyone talks about changing their lives for the best but it didn't take much time for some to dirty up their clean slates.

       When you are on the inside nobody cares about you. They care about your social status and your money and your connections. When you are on the outside you have a chance to make genuine friends and live a drama free live and just learn to appreciate the little things and moments that appear. And you have a chance to let love appear in your life. You can’t force love to happen. And dating someone for a couple of hours or days doesn't mean you were in a relationship nor had love. You had a fling that’s all. It cannot be something you plan. It comes to you like an answered prayer. I wasn't looking for it and it just found me. I’m happy with my life now. Drama free, I have my very small group of friends but at least they are real with no masks on. And I have the love of my life to guide me and support me and love me each day.  

       Just be careful walking down the primrose path. You may find hell instead of happily ever after. One thing about being on the top of the world, it gives you a long, long way to fall. 

                 So be happy with your life and do what is right.
                                 Find yourself a great place…

                                          On the outside ;)

Nineteen Minutes

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness,
and the feeling of being unloved.”

       When you don’t fit in, you become super human. You can hear a whisper about you from a mile away. You can disappear, even when it looks like you’re still standing right there. You can scream and nobody hears a sound. You are the thing that used to be normal, but that was so long ago, you can’t even remember what it was like. You can feel people staring; it’s like heat that rises from the pavement during summer, like a poker in the small of your back. You don’t have to hear a whisper, either, to know that it’s all about you.

       I used to stand in front of the mirror in the bathroom to see what they were staring at. I wanted to know what made their heads turn, what it was about me that was so incredibly different. At first I couldn't tell. I mean, I was just me. Then one day, when I looked in the mirror, I understood. I looked into my own eyes and I hated myself maybe as much as all of them did. That was the day I started to believe they might be right. 

       Ask a random kid today if he or she wants to be popular and they’ll tell you no, even if the truth is they do. See, you can’t admit to wanting it because the truth makes you less cool. To be truly popular, it has to look like it’s something you are, when in reality, it’s what you make yourself. I wonder if anyone works any harder at anything than kids do at being popular. So how do you crack that inner sanctum? Well, here’s a catch: it’s not up to you. What’s important is what everyone else thinks of how you dress, what you eat, what music you listen to.

       I've always sort of wondered, though. If everyone else’s opinion is what matters, than do you really have one of your own? It would be one thing to be a loser if it meant no one paid attention to you, but in school, it means you’re actively sought out. There’s a word you lean in Social Studies: schadenfreude  It’s when you enjoy watching someone else suffer. The real question though, is why? I think part of it is just self-preservation. And part of it is because a group always feels more like a group when it’s banded together against an enemy. It doesn't matter if that enemy has never done anything to hurt you-you just have to pretend you hate someone even more than you hate yourself. You become lonely.

       Being alone is the worst place to be. Loneliness can overcome you at any time. One day your positive and everything in life seems to be perfectly fine. Then all of a sudden, that wave crashes over you and you are lost.



       Everyone enters this state of depression at least once in your life. I mean, you can’t be happy 24/7. Can you? For me it was for about 4 years. Depression is the worst thing ever. You don’t do anything. You become lifeless, but it's true loneliness that makes you feel sad. You feel like nobody likes you, like nobody loves you anymore. And all you want to do is cry.


       Well it’s not true. People love you out there. People truly care about you, but they just haven’t shown it yet. That is their biggest mistake in life. We are afraid to tell people how we really feel. We are afraid to care for others because we think that we will let them down. That whatever we say to them will be spread out to everyone like a virus and they will judge us for our secrets. What’s the problem with telling a friend that you are here for them? That if they have a problem or just need to talk that you are here to talk, to be supportive? Why is that so hard? All we need is one friend. That’s it. All we need to do is be there and not distant from them. 

       Don’t judge yourself or anyone else. Nobody knows what you are going through except you. All we can hope for is that someone can at least relate to the problem you are going through and give you advice. To hug you and tell you everything will be all right; to grab a coffee with you and just hang out; to talk to you when you don’t feel like talking.

       All you need is that one person to be able to talk to. The person that would always ask you how you are feeling, how was your day or week. The person that you know you can call at any time of the day or the night and say what you need to say without them judging you. I used to have that friend. She’s gone now. But even with her gone I still can talk to her just because we live far away from each other. And I know I have people around me that care and love me. I know I can call them whenever and they will be by my side at any second.

       If you are going through a hard time in life, pick up the phone right now and call your friend. Call that person who you know you can say anything to and who won’t judge you or talk bad about you and tell them what’s happening to you. Don’t waste this opportunity to build a closer relationship with your friend. Let them help you. Don’t waste it, embrace it.

      Just breathe, be brave, and call…what is the worst that can happen? Remember, a real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out on you. Who will be there for you when he’d rather be somewhere else.

My question is: Do we ever really know someone?

 And who, if anyone, has the right to judge someone else?

Love & Photos

 Hey Hey Hey!
       So wanted to share a bit about how my Monday turned out...usually people always complain about Monday. I don't really cause my PMS (Prepare to meet Satan) day is always on a Sunday. Anywhoooo I already woke up super happy and excited. 2 things happened.

       First of all it was the 21st, that means 8 months with my baby already. And i'm so happy we made it this far. It has been a rocky journey with many ups and downs, but in the end it is just us and nobody else. It's our relationship and no matter what others say about either one of us we know we can talk it out and find our way back to each other. The only thing we have is love and eternal love. It's hard being apart during the week but we never fail to find time in our day to text each other or call once or twice. Cause if you really love someone you will put in the effort to make your relationship work out. 

       These past 8 months have taught me so much and i'm so grateful each day to have someone in my life who loves me more than anyone can ever love another person. And I can never find the right words to say thank you, all I can say is that I Love You.
          
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       The second thing that happened was Sunday night I got a text and found out it was from Hagen Troy who many know is a Singaporean singer raised in the UK. He also works with Franz De Paris located at Kembangan Plaza; which is a company/group that works with hair styling, make up, fashion, photography. Hagen had also told me that they also do coaching and go to different schools to give advice to students about life which is pretty cool. Anyway he was doing an article for a men's lifestyle fitness magazine that I think belongs to Toni&Guy and FDP also. Wasn't so sure which magazine it was.
       
       So my part technically was to shoot for a section on hair care and how to style your hair with their products in about 5 minutes. Literally had to just show the process you know and show the different angles and how to style from the front, side, and back of the head. When I got there to FDP I was of course greeted by Hagen so I was already nervous cause well, hes a celebrity. And I enjoy his music a lot. 

       After I took a seat inside I was greeted also by the creative stylist Angeline Tan. It was really great getting to talk to them and all and they really made me feel welcome and we had tons of fun in the styling room and also during the shoot with the photographers and we laughed a lot. Of course there were two other models doing shoot for the same reason but different topics such as skin care and also hair care, but they never really talked much...oh well.

       This was by far the biggest 'shoot' I can say I have done. Other times it was just for friends portfolios or for fun but this is going to be in a magazine and get to see it when it comes out end of February beginning of March. So i'm really excited. Was by far the best opportunity ever to work with such an amazing company and amazing people. Thank you again FDP, Hagen Troy, and Angeline!

Here are some pics from yesterday:

(Me waiting in the styling room)

(The photographers that day, tons of fun to work with.)

(Creative manager Angeline Tan)

Its Always A Good Time

       This week was pretty harsh...in many ways actually but not gonna bring it up. Today gonna write about Wynn's 21st birthday that was last night...I literally just got home after a major long night.

       So I was home rushing already to get dressed and go meet my bff Kelvin cause we were gonna go together. I took a cab and reached Costa Sands Chalet but we ended up at the wrong one since apparently there are 2 with the same name...nice job...We ended up going around twice to the same chalet and only then realized it was the wrong one. After a very long time we finally made it.

       Overall it was a pretty wild night. I met so many family members who in my opinion are the funniest people ever and so nice its amazing! People were laughing, and drinking, and just having such a fun night. 

       And of course came the cake, which was when I had to take pics of literally everyone, and I mean, EVERYONE. I swear there was so many people I stood for God knows how long, but was so fun. And the cake was so good! At the end I ended up in the bedroom resting cause I was tired and only some people were left. Then I remember like 6 people were in bed later on sleeping with me so I think ended up sleeping only 4 hours? Oh well, wide awake now.

       After getting everything ready we went over to EHub for lunch at McDonalds and it was me, Wynn, his friend Nelson, his mom and his brother Vynn. Then I went to see the slot machines and play a bit with his mom and brother which was pretty fun, everyone lost but was a good time. And now I am finally home and gonna rest for the day. But before that...enjoy the pics ;)

Some of the first people to arrive :)
(Varian, John, David, Me, Kelvin, Cedric and SohWynn)

Us...we know who we are ;)

Me and Wynns mom ^^

Wynn, Kelvin and I

Cake Cake Cake!!

Happy Birthday!

Make a wish

Happy 21st Birthday SohWynn!!